Well, I'm going to try to keep this blog going as I am at The Mission (for those of you who don't know, The Mission is a homeless shelter). I may not be able to update every single day, but I'll do my best to keep it up to date.
So last night was my first night at The Mission. It was exhausing. I got there at 3:30. I was first informed that I had to take all of my clothing and put it in the dryer for 30 minutes to 'fight infestation'. I understand this, so I had no problem going along with it. Then the lady said that there was a shift change coming up so at 4 they would be able to do the intake on me. Well, then for some reason they had to take care of somthing at 4 so they told me that they wouldn't be able to get me in until after dinner. Long story short, it was past 7 when I got all the paper work done. And the paper work didn't take that long, it was just because other shit was going on. But we got into a room. They have it set up so that you walk into a room and there are two bunk beds and then there are two doors to two different rooms. You all share one bathroom. I got lucky and got a single room to myself. So I have privicy and Madison can get her sleep like she needs.
I was so tired last night that I went to bed at like 9:30. But I got woken up an hour later by one of the other ladys because she was kind enough to tell me that I had a chore to do. Yay! My chore for the week: Clean the bathroom in the evening. *shrug* Oh well, it could be worse right? I can deal with that. I went back to bed after that though.
This morning. I woke up at 5am so that I could get a shower before Madison had to get up. Wake up call is at 5:30 for breakfast at 6:15. It's hard getting a 1 & 1/2 year old up at 5:30 but for a meal it's worth it. Though, we were only given like 15-20 minutes to eat and Madison takes forever to eat. Breakfast will be interesting that's for sure.
So this is how The Mission works. Wake up call is at 5:30. If you don't want to go to breakfast that's fine. Breakfast is at 6:15. After breakfast you go back up to your room. You have to make sure your room is neat and clean and your beds are made before you leave. You have to be off the floor and down stairs by 8am. You can do what you want from there. There is a room (it's the REC room) where it's warm and you can stay. They have daycare for the kids from 8:30-11:30 (which I need to sign Madison up for because...), and from 9:30-10:30 there is a manditory class that I have to go to. If you have a job then you don't have to go but, I have yet to get the job (tomorrow I'm supposed to be getting a call). So anyway, they serve you lunch as well as dinner and after dinner you can go up to your room. Cerfew is at 6, accept on Friday and Saturday. If you have done your chores all week and been good and no one has told you other wise, your cerfew on Friday and Saturday night is 8:30.
This is great, but I don't think I'll be doing anything Friday night. And Saturday night....yeah...I hope to do something on Saturday but that's hope. The problem is finding something that can be done with Madison if I go somewhere. And I also want to hang out with Zach, but that gets complicated too : /
So that's how it works. Oh and during the day you have to be looking for a job and a place to live. Hopefully I wont have to worry about the job part *crosses fingers and prays*. As long as Burger King calls back on Monday I will be set. The guy said he didn't have an exact date yet for the orientation, and that he had a few details to work out (whatever that ment...). But he had said the only thing that he was waiting for at the time was the background check to come back and like I said I'm clean as can be. I feel like I'm running out of places to apply. I know there are quite a few others places to go to, but I am running out of places.
<----How I'm Holding Up---->
So I guess I'm holding up ok. I cried for a long time last night after Madison went to bed. It's not that bad sleeping there or the chores or anything. It's the fact that the class is at such a awkward time of the morning that it makes it hard to do anything and the daycare is...weird. Just the fact that you get an hour before and after the class to do something without your child...but what you are supposed to do I'm not sure because you can't ride a bus anywhere there isn't time. I need to go donate plasma tomorrow. Not sure who is going to watch Madison. If I can't gets someone to watch her between 1 and 4 then I'm screwed and will have to figure out different day to go back to the plasma center. I'm not sure if after Monday I will be able to go again...I mean I will but the wait will be longer because I wont be able to go at 7am anymore due to the dumb class and needing to find someone to watch Madison. It's just easier to get a job. But I really need to go this second time. Right, holding up...the idea of not having anything to do and staying in the REC room for hours freaks me out. Madison has no attention span what so ever, so even if you give her a toy she's everywhere. And I have to follow her everwhere because you have to keep an eye on your children (well duh of course, like I have a problem with this? No, I don't). But I'm pretty much following her around as she walks around this room and I try to keep her out of stuff. It's stressful. And makes me tired. I wish she was a little older. I think that's the one thing that stresses me out the most. Strange I know. But I guess I can deal. It's really not that bad. Just...stressful.
So right now people might ask what I need most. What I need most is emotional support I guess. I get lonely and the only thing I can do after Madison goes to bed other than my chore is get on facebook on my phone. That's not bad, but it get's...boring after awhile. There are only so many things you can do on facebook. I'm addicted to it...I watch it almost constantly because it's something to do. It's like an escape. A connection that I really need with people right now.
So yeah, that's how it is right now. Hopefully I can get to the public library and update this every few days. The entries will have to be short because I'll have Madison with me, but they'll be there.
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